changes.

somehow i've published the relationship between me and him.
after much effort given by him.

he re-assured me almost everyday that he is different.

yes. i've given a chance to go with it.
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now that i'm spending most of my time with him and his friends..
i begin to feel a little more life..
but begin to felt that the friendship part is going downhill.

i've been through the downhill of friendship previously.
and it definitely did not benefit me at all.
instead i became very dependent.

i'm tryin hard to spend time with friends.
but it seems like.. my friends are the ones that are leaving me.
it hurts. somehow.. inside.

for the past few months.. they are sort of priority to me.
but right now.. what have turn them into such a way.
peak season? stress? or what i did?

somehow i felt drifted away.. a little.
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realising all these scenes happening in my life..
perhaps i've been relatively dependent on a thing.
i might not be totally dependent on my guy now..
probably cause i'm dependent on my friends?

maybe..
and maybe i should balance up all these priorities.
satisfying no one but myself and family.

ignorance is bliss.
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Chinese New Year is coming.. YeaY!

i'm trying hard to finish all my work here.
as much as possible.
and go back to Mlc to have fun with my family and friends. =)

can't wait for lou sang. HaHa!
don't know why.. i find lou sang.. really really facinating! XD

*i miss my mlc friends..* 
sigh
>=(