stupidity

i'm getting worst now.
i'm killing myself in both side.

everything is so wrong now.
i'm feeling like shit.
i feel so stupid. why can't i think before re-acting.

fucking stupid.
fucking asshole.

argg.. i feel so sad now.. i want cry.
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this mistake is huge.
what should i do now.

i want to give up my career at this juncture.
it feels like i can't take this anymore.