gone

i am beginning to hate everything.
fuck man.

i had my first exam yesterday.
fine. this is the subject i concentrate most.
for the first time i actually studied the text ( >500pages? ) twice.
fine. i tried to do questions as much as possible.

but what?
i got diarrhoea the day before the exam.
okay. i did not really do a lot of questions.
okay. that was me to blame.

then what?
its exam day. its not like i studied till very late.
is 1am very late? wtf.
i got up with stomach upset.
went to toilet.
yeah.. bloody diarrhoea.. and period came.
wtf.
fine. i can go on with those.
but this came.

my major migrane.
and then. i felt so cold.
i tried to study that morning.
but good.

i could not. okay. good. great.
this is perfect.
i cried. i gave up. i took some rest in the morning.

2pm- off to college.
and arrggg.. fucking migrane attack. and i got fever.
go for panadol activfast.

half an hour in exam hall in pain.
1hour was sleepy.

i could not even use my fucking brain.

yeah.. i am fucked.
i am so pissed off.

went to bed right after i got home.
i slept till this morning.
still bearing the migrane.

what's wrong with me?

to think back the paper i did yesterday.
it was rather easy. if i can use my fucking brain.
said and done. i am gonna fail.
no fucking graduation anymore.
perfect. after all the hopes and dream.

okay. i am chilled.
nothing to be worried.
i just want to be healthy again.
at least the fever and diarrhoea is gone.

now.. my migrane... what can i do?
friday.. the next paper. god..