penang...?

i find that everything seem to be so =.=' lately.
i find myself easily irritated when i was made fun of.
i find myself in bad health condition.
i find that everything is changing.

i have learnt a lot in work lately.
it is just these few months..
and i have really learnt a lot.
honestly, it is quite simple..
but that is the basic of everything in the future.

i'm proud that i'm a fast learner! XD
but i hate having short term memory lost. =(

desmond seem to be very desperate..
the team need to send someone over to Penang for the job.
honestly i would have volunteered to go..
if i'm not in-charged of so many other jobs.

there so much more things that i'm following up for the team.
feels so burdened.
and now.. this job.. which is so significant.
any screw ups = gone.
and i'm only given a week.. with minimal help.

i really have no confidence in this job..
not having any information on their past activities at all.

but it is something to learn..
but i hope evrything will be fine.

and i really want to go to cameron next saturday.
sigh.
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boss did not force me at all.
but i do not know why.. i said ok.
he is pushy.. he gives me tones of job and responsibilities..
but i do know he cares for me and protect his team.

perhaps somehow i feel that this team..
i really feel some kind of bonding.
that we care for each other. protect. help.
colleague = friendship.
dtt, ed, hr, wck, tkc.
the initial team.

somehow this is the team that i'm so proud of.
maybe dtt and ed don't really like me.
maybe hr think that i'm not good enough like her.
haha. but its true!
but still.. i don't care.
as long as i tried and i did not fail anything.

ei shit. i'm talking crap again.

gonna rest now..
i'm seriously tired.
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the moon seem so huge and pretty lately.
the thunder came non stop everyday.
the rain came so heavily like the world is ending.
the evenings seem like a never ending oven.
the air-cond we used.. we are killing the earth more.

u.f.o. or world disaster.
the end is still something i'm really afraid to date.