decisions

life-changing decision?
a road not taken?

lol.
i remember those times when we need to read and understand those literature.
it is actually quite fun.. don't you think so?

i do not really read.
the only novel i read.. was twilight - pg25 and i gave up. lol.
loved to read only horror.. mystery books.
that is also if i felt like doing so out of the sudden.
probably that is the reason why my command of english sucks!

its not like i do not read at all.
i love reading manga.. watchin anime.. and drama.. and movies.
its not real.. but i prefer to live in this fantasy world.
probably i was influenced by dar since im 15 yrs old.
lol. its all chanmeiwah fault! XD

sigh.
actually i want to talk about life-changing decision.
but i suddenly thought of the stupid "road not taken" literature.
haha.

sigh again.
feel so damn bored lately.
seriously feel like *shit when i don't have money to spend.
whatever i want to do.. i need to think 2-3 times.
totally omg. this sucks. i hate this feeling.

damn i want to go back to college.
when i can spend with no worries about cash. haha.

anyway.. the life-changing decision i was talking about..
its actually on my career.
it keeps appearing in my mind that..
"i rather do nothing then doing something i don't like."

sigh. its not like im gonna quit now.
but considering of the workload.. and expectations.
i'm quite tired of it now.
am really trying plan something out by nx year..
but i guess mum gonna nag me if i do not really plan well.

sigh. probably mum is right..
we can't have the best of both worlds.
which means we need to choose what we want.

i'm always procastinating.
always thinking but not implementing it.
sigh.

damn. i do not know what i'm talking about anymore.
haha.

good nite hoong..