1818- all iz well..

LoL.
here in client and i'm blogging.
damn stupid.

i've failed my paper.
managed to achieve only 44 marks.
arrgg.. was a little disappointed that i failed initially.
thought i might just b lucky enough to pass.
well.. only fools wait for lucky days i guess.

did not try hard enough i think.
slacking.. thinking too much of other stuff instead.
how dumb i was.
in the end.. i lost everything that is so dear to me.

to think back.. what's wrong with me back then.
if i can turn back time..
i would just give myself like 2-3 times slap.
or maybe 10 times slap. Lol.

only 3 words i can day about this.
i deserve this!
what he said before was true.
'if u dun try hard enough, then u fail. do not blame anythin but urself.'

probably cause of this,
i actually did not feel much pain.
when i was looking at my result..
i was like.. "Fcuk! i failed! why sial?"
haha.
then i think back what i did during the study leave..
haha. i deserve it la.
but again.. shit.. 44 man.. its only 6 marks to go to pass! =(

looks like i need to take study leave again this sem.
LoL. *shit.. thought i can go graduation on Oct.
bloody hell. hahaha!

different mindset now.. i guess.
i'll go for revision class this round..
and study hard enough.
in fact.. all my friends who have taken this paper failed.
except like 2?
no no no. its done! i'm gonna pass this round.
its my final attempt and that's it.
no more lucky days.. everything comes with hard work.

thought of going to enroll celebrity fitness in Oct..
guess i'm gonna be off-peak till Dec'09..
but now.. maybe i need to postpone.
or maybe i can.. just need organise my time a little.
yeay! i can't wait to go for the street dance class, yoga lesson and gym!

sigh. back to work now.
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24.08.2010- need to exchange my company lappie tomorrow.
there is a part of me that felt the pinch.
he is named 1818.
has been with me for 1 year 7 mths.
i really don't want to change it. sigh.
bye 1818. i'll miss u.. thanks for not failing on me so far.

oh yeah.. i freaking bought toto 4D..
RM 4 => RM 2 for 1818 and RM 2 for 3337.
but i did not win. HAHA!
stupid.
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put your hand on your chest/ breast..=D
and say.. "all is well..."

yeah..

oikKKK! time to work!