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its new year!
happy new year dudes!

i know that I'm really late this time..
i know i was not reachable for the past two days..
i'm sorry.
my mobile is out of service.. =(
destroyed eric's mobile after loaned for a month.
i'm sorry. i will repair it. lol.

anyway..
this new year.. how is it?
somehow.. this new year is really one that i do not expect..
but.. i did have fun too.

2010..
its a new year with no new resolution.. yet. lol.
i saw lots and lots of fireworks this year..
but at a far range.. but i did witness it. =)
somehow at that point.. i felt weird.
mixed feelings?

loved to watch fireworks when i'm underneath them actually.
happened to me only twice in my lifetime..
once in malacca.. when i was 17.. and another was two years back..in midvalley..
somehow i like the feeling when firework seem to fall onto me.
lol. i know that i'm weird.

but it's B-E-A-U-tifull!


isn't it beautiful?

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since the day we broke up.. there isn't much contact then..
he disappeared.. and that's what everyone has been telling me.
i did missed him.. for every occasion.. i would think about what happened before..
but somehow.. i know it can never be the same again..

it is often hard to forget the past..
often hard to bring yourself up from the trap..
being so much so in love with someone.. but..
it is always true.. things change when love is gone.

time will heal the pain.. time will show you the magic of life..
many said that.. but how true is that?
i've watch a lot.. from real life dramas..
and it is true..

i remembered one told me..
if you keep looking back.. you might miss something different in the future.
and it is true..

to date.. i've been open up to a new world..
something that is unusual for me.. for someone anti-social like me.
nahh.. actually i just need some alcohol to be talkative.. Lol.
anyway.. that world.. gives me a new breeze in life..

that guy.. somehow manage to control me.. in a way.. that i will not rebel..
being me.. i really hope it will not be pain at the end of the day..
despite all the Nos'.. despite all the analysis..
i fell so much for him..

i just wanted a simple love..
and i know this will not be a simple one too..
but.. i just somehow wanted this to happen.

even for a moment.. i just want to be happy..