tired..

have been a stretch of tiring days.
i just seem to not have enough rest everyday.

the peak is here.. and i know days will be very hard soon.

sigh.
how i wish life could be a little easier.
why does life seem to be so hard at times.

has been auditing a lot..
going through companies.. meeting new people..
sharing thoughts.. experience..
all these kind of open up my mind..
i've been thinking and keep thinking.. i need to be successful..
i'm feeling old already.

and yet.. i'm feeling so tired..
i'm tired of doing so much.. so much for fcuks?!
sigh. just want a good life.. a comfortable life..
yet i aim high for what i want.. sigh.
i'm just feeling so dissatisfied with what i have now.

sigh. although i'm really thankful for what i have actually.

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i've lost my senses lately..
i was lost in a world where i do not want to leave..
a place i felt so comfortable.. so loved.. so tender..
but i just somehow need to be awake..
need to get out.. and it just feels so pain..

the day i fell asleep on your arms unconsciously..
something that i normally can't.. and do not happen.
it feels so different..

those nightmares that haunt me when i'm afraid of losing something..
gone when i open my eyes..

just because the face.. the stupidity u..


i am missing you..

and

nothing is more stupid than i am..