*tik tok..

weekends flies and goes by just like that..
the time spent all day.. *snaps.. and gone!

why do i even felt like life is really very short now.
there is so much i want to do..
but i can't.

i've met lots and lots of impressive people lately..
each with different views.. background.. knowledge.. and experience..
hmm.. why do people think so much? work so hard?
why can't we just live sufficiently in somewhere nice.

i actually planned to work hard and build a house in cameron 1-2 years ago.
told few people.. and their reaction.. can u? for what?

think about it.. why want to be so hectic?
but yes la.. i don't want to spend my lifetime just staying there and read novels.
haha.

i really really want to go and see the world..
not as in work or what..
i just want to travel wif my frens.. targeted to travel once a year..
but NO.. i want more... sigh.
somehow i felt like.. if i were to enjoy just once a year..
its just not sufficient and i will not have enough time to go everywhere..
not that i have some kind of disease.. *choi choi!*
just felt like i'm old d.. argg!

omg.. i'm becoming 24!

yet again.. dream far yeah hoong..
long way to go..

sigh.

just want to have a meaningful life.

and to think again..
its all in your hand.. how u want ur life to be meaningful.

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one used to tell me..
giving up is not wrong.. its just a choice.
but are u willing to make such choice? can u handle it?

*speechless?

but sometimes when the road is no longer a choice..
why not make something out of it..
if things became the worst ever.. then make the best out of it..

*can i? its easy to talk yeah..

its not about talking..
its about how you want your life to be..

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i have never want to make such a choice..
you have always been my top priority.. my everything..
for me being a person who depend on you..
for me being someone who only think about you for everything..
for me being so imperfect for you..
that i felt i am never good enough for you..

its all just me..

now that i need to be decisive with what i want..
all i want is you to be happy..
you to be safe.. and strong.. and healthy..
be who you are.. whom i know 7 years ago..

for i care for you a lot..